The pangs of head pains...

I hit my head a few weeks ago. It was quite comical. I was getting into a 2012 VW Jetta rental car and nailed my head on the car so hard my head bounced off and hit the window. I laughed about it and have until today. Today I went to the doctor and was told my left eye was drooping. DROOPING!?? It also wasn't responding to the well-known neurologist follow my finger test.  So tomorrow I get an MRI and Friday I get an EEG.  I'm terrified.

The questions are innumerable. Could I have had a stroke? Do I have a blood clot? Is there brain damage? Seriously, I hit my head on the side of a car. Who would have thought it would become this serious? 

I'm sure I'll be fine for tonight, I'm terrified. Let's hope and pray tomorrow I'm a little more secure.

Today I battle....

Today I'm battling a crushing view of the world. I'm exhausted from anxiousness and it's causing me to go into a bit of a depression. Bit being "OMG I'm depressed!"

Not sure what started it all, but I'm damn sure I'm going to get myself out of this mess soon! A little bit of history. I've had a migraine (yes A MIGRAINE) since February of 2010. Before that I was getting them weekly. It all started after I quit smoking, the one thing that apparently let me blow off steam, literally and figuratively. My past two years have been hell and I think maybe, just maybe, now that I'm in a stable good relationship and feel safe, my mind and body is finally allowing me to feel all of it....I just wish it wasn't all at once.

So I'm going to try to go through my anxious depression day by day and hope that typing this stuff up helps me even just a little.